and others

oh so lazy!!!! just spoke to karthik for a long time... hmmm next friday we'll be leaving! WOHOO!!!!

thanks

if a heart could break, how i feel right now would probably be it... slowly eating up on you. one can't control everything i guess. how disappointing and heart breaking. lesson learnt though. never ever give too much cos it'll back fire. it was not supposed to be like this. it was not supposed to be like this...

THE SUTRA OUTING!!

What a fun night that was!! Mei Mei, Jan, Nishah, Shantona, Divya, Nishani, Suba, Priya, Michelle, Kym and I went out last night to Bangsar Shopping Complex for a FUN dinner at Chillis. Rebecca and her boyfriend, Robin joined us later. It's been too long since i went out so yesterday,after my finals, was a great outing!~ as usual, our table was the loudest and most attractive! ahaahhh... the bill came up to some RM500+... HAHAHA.... yeah we dancers have HUGE appetites.


Basically after rehearsal we got ready and went to BSC and joined the others. We realised there are more people coming so we requested for a bigger table and the joined FOUR square tables for us.. and the laughter,talk,snapping of photos took place almost immediately. like Kym said, if not for the digital camera, we'll all need a suitcase of film rolls for our outings. =) the food and drinks arrived and started on that and the talk and the clicking still went on.. =) i think we kind of over-ordered.. but nothing stopped us from getting the desert!!!! the molten chocolate cake!! topped with ice cream. YUMMY!!!!
So that was Nishah's cake which she fed us all with HER style! anything nishah does looks obscene even this act of sweetness!! WE LOVE YOU!! More laughter and clicking and it was time to go home as my dad was already there so said more byes and took more pictures! our brave Tan Pretty Pretty asked a random cute guy to help take a picture of us all.



p.s. Tan Pretty Pretty's face wasn't red at the end of the night. prove on the picture above! it was FUN FUN FUN night!!!

time....

If i had superpowers, i would change back time.. change it from when i was ignorant, time when i thought nothing will happen to me. however, as an optimist, I'm not going to divulge in that and now move on, carry on, drag forward.. whatever. to blame and point fingers is easy but sometimes i have no choice cos i am right! hahah... anyway, life has been good to me with some minor hiccups here and there to add spice and COLOUR.... the recent topping the chart! but the chart is only interesting with with its curves. ah well, I'm not going to think so much anymore. like a hawk you watch (try to) but what CAN i do... here's when i stay optimistic and bloody busy. =) can't wait for the India tour!!! Ms Tan Pretty Pretty, we'll keep ourselves as busy as possible cos we have a boutique to run in the future!!

P.S. Michelle confirmed today that I'll be doing the cover shoot for KLUE. div, lets have some fun!

I believe

Its the 1st of December. Karthik's birthday. i hope he has a nice enjoyable day. Heart is such a complex thing isn't it. and sometimes one has to go against all odds to achieve that ONE thing. that one thing that you really really want. The process is tiring and at times you want nothing to do with it. but, oh how difficult it is! to walk away, or to just watch, because there's so much feelings involved. i believe everything will be fine.. i believe.. i believe..!


ps: how strong am i?


HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARTHIK!!! =D

intoxicated

There are not many things that i don't like.. well i think so NOW anyway. But i know for a fact that i cannot stand men who drink. I'm not even able to explain why i feel this way but i just almost 'hate' them. If that is not bad enough, i absolutely can't help hating men who drink in the day(i mean serious heavy drinking)! and i don't understand how alcohol can solve a problem that a sober mind can't.. doesn't it add to your problems? errrr..... i may sound 'kolot' or narrow minded as in this age and period, drinking is a socially acceptable thing. In fact if you don't drink, that is when its not cool. But everyone might have their likes and dislikes like some ppl can't stand ppl who drag their feet while walking, this alcohol-man combinations irritates me. such hatred towards something that doesn't concern me.. but still.... =)

....dasamahavidya...

I can't help feeling good that we've actually finished all our 3 programs. now just to fine tune it. the Vision of Forever program consists 6 items, Hari Haro, Night of Purnama Sthai, Rageshri Pallavi, Dasamahavidya, Ardhanari, and the Shanti Bani Sloka. The Dasamahavidya depicts the 10 forms of Shakti (the female energy) with Kali, Tara, Bhubaneswari, Sodasi, Bagala, Chinamastha, Mathangi, Bhairavi, Kamala and Doomavathi (in that order). Its such a powerful item that one enters a trance-like situation, more so while dancing it. But because there's so much control over movements when we dance, an 'exaggerated' trance doesn't surface. Personally speaking, i think I'm not doing any justice to my part, Bagala n Doomavathi. I myself feel no power anymore and I have to do something about it. Now, all I'm doing are movements, like another nritha (pure dance) item. I remember how much more powerful it was when we performed in Bhubaneswar. Something is missing (in me).

attacks

Its Friday morning and i woke up feeling worried. worried if everything is OK in Chennai. worried if it'll stay ok. The terrorist attack in Mumbai is absolutely disturbing and one can't help feeling exposed to the danger that is caused to man by man. Accordingly its been pouring nonstop in Chennai and its flooded. This is nature's reaction to 'our' cruelness i guess. if the world is actually coming to an end, am i doing what i ought to be doing? i ask myself if there really would be 2010, the year I'm suppose to be graduating, the year I'm suppose to get married... the year I'm looking forward to. Will there be a sign to say this is the end? Perhaps i should have taken up THE offer...?!

thursday the 27th

Today started of well with me waking up without frown. I wanted to face today like a 'man'. it turned out not bad after all. I didn't have to fight with those foreign workers to get a seat in the bus cos my Appa dropped me in college. The Quiz for Intercultural Communication wasn't bad at all. Submitted my photography assignment, i think i may have found a new-hidden-talent. Karthik, watch out!I didn't laugh much today. i think i should make it a point to do so. Anyway, lunch was paid for today cos we had a sort of 'party' and Mock cheque presentation to the Malaysian Mental Health Association (RM 5000 is no small amount). Next was the newspaper time (again!) but Putri was so nice to help me out knowing what how technologically challenged i am when it comes down to even finding for photos (plus i know it'll get done anyway) ohhhh..... its raining soo heavily here. the sky was sooo dark at 5. kind of eerie. but i'm safe =) Finals is on Tuesday and i am getting kind of worried as i have not touched my books!! stupid newspaper!!!!

ABSENT-me

If one forgets something once, its forgivable, but not when one does it (or doesn't do it this time) the very next minute, right! so...

scenario 1: went to college to today and and zoey asks if she could use my pen drive, revathi starts looking .. PEN DRIVE MISSING .. realize i left in in the computer lab yesterday. so the guy gives me back.

scenario 2: pen drive missing again! left it again! eeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Funny it feels to be unorganized cos that's exactly what i am right now. the last time i forgot things was when i was going through puberty! excuse for now???