I believe

Its the 1st of December. Karthik's birthday. i hope he has a nice enjoyable day. Heart is such a complex thing isn't it. and sometimes one has to go against all odds to achieve that ONE thing. that one thing that you really really want. The process is tiring and at times you want nothing to do with it. but, oh how difficult it is! to walk away, or to just watch, because there's so much feelings involved. i believe everything will be fine.. i believe.. i believe..!


ps: how strong am i?


HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARTHIK!!! =D

intoxicated

There are not many things that i don't like.. well i think so NOW anyway. But i know for a fact that i cannot stand men who drink. I'm not even able to explain why i feel this way but i just almost 'hate' them. If that is not bad enough, i absolutely can't help hating men who drink in the day(i mean serious heavy drinking)! and i don't understand how alcohol can solve a problem that a sober mind can't.. doesn't it add to your problems? errrr..... i may sound 'kolot' or narrow minded as in this age and period, drinking is a socially acceptable thing. In fact if you don't drink, that is when its not cool. But everyone might have their likes and dislikes like some ppl can't stand ppl who drag their feet while walking, this alcohol-man combinations irritates me. such hatred towards something that doesn't concern me.. but still.... =)

....dasamahavidya...

I can't help feeling good that we've actually finished all our 3 programs. now just to fine tune it. the Vision of Forever program consists 6 items, Hari Haro, Night of Purnama Sthai, Rageshri Pallavi, Dasamahavidya, Ardhanari, and the Shanti Bani Sloka. The Dasamahavidya depicts the 10 forms of Shakti (the female energy) with Kali, Tara, Bhubaneswari, Sodasi, Bagala, Chinamastha, Mathangi, Bhairavi, Kamala and Doomavathi (in that order). Its such a powerful item that one enters a trance-like situation, more so while dancing it. But because there's so much control over movements when we dance, an 'exaggerated' trance doesn't surface. Personally speaking, i think I'm not doing any justice to my part, Bagala n Doomavathi. I myself feel no power anymore and I have to do something about it. Now, all I'm doing are movements, like another nritha (pure dance) item. I remember how much more powerful it was when we performed in Bhubaneswar. Something is missing (in me).

attacks

Its Friday morning and i woke up feeling worried. worried if everything is OK in Chennai. worried if it'll stay ok. The terrorist attack in Mumbai is absolutely disturbing and one can't help feeling exposed to the danger that is caused to man by man. Accordingly its been pouring nonstop in Chennai and its flooded. This is nature's reaction to 'our' cruelness i guess. if the world is actually coming to an end, am i doing what i ought to be doing? i ask myself if there really would be 2010, the year I'm suppose to be graduating, the year I'm suppose to get married... the year I'm looking forward to. Will there be a sign to say this is the end? Perhaps i should have taken up THE offer...?!

thursday the 27th

Today started of well with me waking up without frown. I wanted to face today like a 'man'. it turned out not bad after all. I didn't have to fight with those foreign workers to get a seat in the bus cos my Appa dropped me in college. The Quiz for Intercultural Communication wasn't bad at all. Submitted my photography assignment, i think i may have found a new-hidden-talent. Karthik, watch out!I didn't laugh much today. i think i should make it a point to do so. Anyway, lunch was paid for today cos we had a sort of 'party' and Mock cheque presentation to the Malaysian Mental Health Association (RM 5000 is no small amount). Next was the newspaper time (again!) but Putri was so nice to help me out knowing what how technologically challenged i am when it comes down to even finding for photos (plus i know it'll get done anyway) ohhhh..... its raining soo heavily here. the sky was sooo dark at 5. kind of eerie. but i'm safe =) Finals is on Tuesday and i am getting kind of worried as i have not touched my books!! stupid newspaper!!!!

ABSENT-me

If one forgets something once, its forgivable, but not when one does it (or doesn't do it this time) the very next minute, right! so...

scenario 1: went to college to today and and zoey asks if she could use my pen drive, revathi starts looking .. PEN DRIVE MISSING .. realize i left in in the computer lab yesterday. so the guy gives me back.

scenario 2: pen drive missing again! left it again! eeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Funny it feels to be unorganized cos that's exactly what i am right now. the last time i forgot things was when i was going through puberty! excuse for now???